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03 November 2013 @ 03:11 am
 
Ritual tonight was very good. I always feel like a bad host since the fibro makes things hard but everyone reassured me that it was good and ritual had real moments of real emotion as Hallows should. i was surprised i did not cry but i have shed those tears for those i lost so much for so long i do not think i had them tonight. I was also glad that there were serious moments. i was afraid with as many of us that use humour to defuse tension (me chief amoung them) and to try to keep moods light that it might not be what it was meant to be but it had it's serious somber moments.

tomorrow i build the ritual bonfire we could not have this night to place the offerings and thank you letters to the ancestors into. I am so glad that it went well and that people enjoyed it. i know i do not do it like in any book so i worry that i am always doing something wrong. But this night means so much to me as it was Doug's (my adopted dad) favourite holiday too. and he was amoung my honoured dead this night
 
 
 
eqfeeqfe on November 3rd, 2013 03:26 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure that you can do anything wrong when you are sincere and those with you are getting something from the experience. Wish that I was there.